Little Baby Doll has her 1st visit with her parents today, and I've been worried how she will act later today, if it will confuse her, etc. I did tell her she was going to see them, and how happy they will be to see her, and that she will be coming back to us afterwards...she's only 3 mos old and prob it was dumb to explain to her, but I felt like I needed to reassure us both, if that makes sense.
Also, I've been starting to feel anxious about upcoming hearing ......where either she'll stay in care, go home or go with family.........I doubt she'll go home, but I guess it could happen. I imagine some family will step up, and thats wonderful for her if thats what happens, but honestly, it makes me feel sick at the thought of her leaving us. I knew that was a real possibility going in, and I know it could happen, but I am DREADING it. Its like, if its gonna happen, go ahead and pull the Bandaid off already!!!!!!!!!! Another 10 days or so of thinking about it is gonna drive me crazy.
She's been with us a little over a week and I feel like she has always been with us.....didn't expect the bond that formed there, as intense bonding didnt happen right away with the twins. Is it because she's so young?
Is there something you do to make yourself not think about all the uncertainties? make yourself feel better?
I feel so selfish and guilty...I want what's best for her. I just wish it didnt suck for us.
Source: http://forums.adoption.com/foster-parent-support/410088-dont-know-whats-wrong-me-morning.html
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